Saturday, April 2, 2011

Decisions, Decisions

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You know, most of the time I don't mind being a single woman.  I'm OK with eating by myself, either here at home or out in a restaurant.  I enjoy most of my evenings at home curled up with my dog watching television or reading a good book.  I don't mind, most of the time, being a single parent.  But there are times, when I really miss having someone to talk over big decisions with.  In my former community I had a good friend that I talked with.  She was my sounding board, and while she never really gave advice, she allowed me the opportunity to talk it over until I had worked it through for myself.  We'd sit and have coffee and spend the afternoon or evening or sometimes both hashing over my latest dilemma or hers.  She never seemed to mind while I went around and around the issue.  I valued her so much for this, and for so much more!

Now I am in a new place with new friends.  I love them all!  They have welcomed me into their homes and their lives and I thank them, but I don't have someone yet that I feel confident enough to share all my secrets and thoughts with.  You know, that friend that you know all of their stuff and they know all of yours and you just love each other any way.  I don't have that here...yet, and I miss it. 

I could pick up the phone and call my friend.  We could talk over the phone but it's not the same as sitting there, face to face sharing all of life with each other.  So, for the first time in my ten years of being single, I face life alone.  I have my God to talk things over with and it is always amazing to me how he places wisdom in front of me.  My scripture reading this morning helped me to remember that I really cannot control anything anyway and that He is always working in our hearts, even when we can't see it.  I cherish my relationship with Him, but I still miss that personal contact.  After all, He's the one that created us to have relationships, that personal contact.  My decision is not life shattering, especially when you ask the question I always try to remember...In five years, is this going to be a big deal?  I can't say that it will be, but it is a big deal today, for me.  I will work it out.  I always do and life will go on.  The process is just new to me, it's different and I have to find my new way.  And I will.

So my message today?  Appreciate those special people in your life, whoever they may be.  We never know just how long we will have them.  Tell them how much you love and appreciate them.  It's those relationships that give us the color in our lives.  They provide the highlights and get us through the low points.  Tell them how important they are to you and thank God for each and every one of them!


Rebecca said...

Ereline, this is soooo true! When we have someone that we can share those special decisions with, it means a great deal. Thank you for reminding me to thank those people in my life and to thank God for them, too. Now, will this post to your blog? We will see.

Ereline said...

Thank so much, Rebecca for your thoughts. Where would we be without friends, old or new? Life is all about our relationships. Isn't that why we're here...relationships with each other, relationship with God? Blessings to you!